好文翻译，侵删。

B站听的，应该是本吧很久以前的文章了，转载太多好无聊，那就试着浅浅翻译一下吧……
人工翻译，加上我极差的英语水平，如有错误，敬请指正。
From Sporty to Feeling Unwell as if Marrow is Burning -- My Brother's Nightmare after Masturbation.
I don't know how to get started. The man I mentioned is my brother -- please remember, my brother. Actually, I really don't want to write this blog post, not because I deny I have this brother, but I don't want to recall this agony. Now, he can't surf the internet. As for the reason, let me tell the whole story.

My brother is 32 years old now. In his childhood, he did well in sports. Though he isn't the best athlete, he could join several projects, from sprint, long jump to soccer. It's said that he almost crushed the referee when throwing the javelin. Clearly, I remember I admired his strong, thick legs, which enabled him to run extremely fast, and made it easy to do homework like carrying water.

He wasn't too tall or short, but was brave when fighting. The first day he entered junior high, he was fined due to the fight against the slackers. He fought them fiercely, each of them was thrown away.

However, I can't see them in reality, now. After entering the society, for many reasons, hardly ever did he communicate to family and he seldom come back. We had no time to reunion even for years. For the sake of work, he had to sit in front of the computer for long. To make things worse, he said he had great desire to "play" with girls, so he lived with his girlfriend, though she was many years older than him and they didn't get married. As is said, they "slept together" many times every day.

In 2008, he suddenly called for me he was ill and had go home. Haven't seen him for years, I harried back to see him. To my surprise, I was scared by his health. His face was ugly, he was too thin as if was "pilled". However, after his physical examination in hospital, no disease was diagnosed, just weak and dull. What's worse, he was afraid of meeting strangers. My family believed Buddhism, so we worshipped the Buddhist and freed captive animals to help him go through. Gradually, he was about to recover in just 3 months, though he still feel uneasy meeting strangers. Luckily, this can't be detected easily.

Afterwards, for many reasons, he went back to that life, though he was cautious, hardly ever look through "bad websites", and don't sleep with girlfriend for days. He believed he recovered, but he was indulge again gradually. After all, no one can constrain him playing computer too much.

Just a month before I wrote this blog post, In May 2012, he felt uncomfortable again. That wasn't so serious at first, but soon, he said "He was about to die!"

Now, my parents let him recuperate in temple, still that symptoms, no disease diagnosed, but felt bad everyday. He puked everything he ate and felt "as if marrow was burning in everywhere." which is his words.

His feelings disappeared in his head and his left hand was shrink, and still dull. Most scaring, he felt he was about to die every day. Maybe, everyone can't imagine the feeling as long as they don't experience.

What's the meaning of "oversensitive"? I think it means timid and darkness in mind with too much thoughts, like this "social phobia" of my brother, who is afraid of others "seeing him through". Sometimes he felt depressed when we trick him, because he felt we were aimed at him. After all, he knew he did too much "bad things" ,so he afraid others know them, not to mention he knew they were bad. So this is why people with masturbation are always ugly, obscene and dark, with dark actions.